I've been practicing all month, almost fully learnt it now. I can't seem to be able to relaz my hands as much as I should, however... I'm so afraid I might make a mistake that my whole body stiffens up and I can't play.
Have you ever experienced this with your drawing and painting? For me it's all too often.
Oh nooo, this song is one of my favorites!! *u* I guess you've seen the movie. /?/
Oh dear, I just realized you play the piano then, so awesome!! I wish I had any sense for music haha : P Oh yes, the stress from the worrying of making a mistake can be truly big. I guess I have times like that too. But the thing that can make me take things less seriously and so stress less about them, is thinking about that how tiny thing this whole thing is, my life, my mistakes in the Universe : P just thinking, who cares, really? I guess overthinking doesn't help-though I do it a lot : P-, so just calm down, and think of the bigger picture, maybe that will help (:
Oh, I am glad to hear that this piece is one of your favourites! Coincidences are so amazing sometimes, no?
And I agree with you about stress. Some people might care and even actively get between me and the process of creating, but I usually don't get too annoyed by them. It's just that I seem to have such a deeply-rooted desire for some sort of perfection, even though I don't believe anything can ever be perfect (in the sense that perfection would be death, for me at least); I want to draw a line on paper and in five minutes later have a Rembrant finished - it's impossible, I know, but why do I demand this so hard from myself?
And hate me afterwards?
I really haven't answered these questions yet. But I'm getting closer, something tells me.
I'd like to share with you one of my most favourite works of art, not only in music but also in photography, filmmaking, painting and everything in general:
Well, if you believe in coincidences then they are hehe : P
Well that's interesting indeed o: I think you shouldn't be that hard on yourself (: But I guess that's just how you are : P (:
But you really shouldn't hate yourself for this (: I'm not too sure what you feel for wanting more than what you have, because I'm kinda the opposite, I usually rather expect the least from myself... that's also not too good I guess, because I'm probably not doing anything with a really full heart, after all I try not to quite care much about anything/but not anyone/. I guess we should find the middle way, when we could do just a little bit better from carelessness but a little bit worse from perfection hehe. (: Maybe it's just practice and time we need to experience our limits?
It was a nice little film (: I like black and white pictures, and this film was like some moving pictures, capturing the nice moments how cameras do, but still moving. (:
Oh, I deeply believe in coincidences... chance and random incidents all around me, or so I think, anyway.
Practice is indeed the only way, I agree. For that it takes time and perseverence, time and constant exercise - it's not easy on the soul or the body, but the outcome will be more than worth it, I believe. Probably the scariest part in practice is doing something too much and ending up haveing forgotten what your original style is... beside practice, thus, one needs to experiment quite a lot - and quite freely!